I was never the type of kid to cried a lot, or the type that shouts and be very talkative. In a Psychological perspective, I’d say it was mainly because I was a Cesarean baby, I was cut out from the tummy and I never really got that “first hug” from my mother’s vag. That’s what my course dictates, and so I was a shy baby, and I’d just drink up my milk every time the bottle is filled.
“Oh! Empty again? that’s your third bottle, no more milk for you, I’ll put water instead” Every time she does that she says that I don’t really finish my bottle and I leave some left so I still have something to drink. Maybe it was because it was plain with no flavor, or maybe it was because I was smart 🙂 don’t agree? ok we’ll go with no flavor then, it’s your story after all LOL.
My mom told me that whenever she was washing clothes she would put my crib near the door so I can still see her, and I would just stand inside my crib, be quite and just watch what she was doing. I like saying that I was never a rowdy baby, because children these days are so high maintenance, I’m not saying that high maintenance babies are no good, I’m simply saying that I was some sort of a unique baby in our neighborhood, so unique that in just 8 months old I was already walking.
“Ahhhh! a Tiyanak! Help! Help!” A stranger shouted in the night while seeing me walk on my 8 month old baby legs towards her, she had thought that I was a monster because of my unusually very small height. And when my mom told me this, I thought awesome! I’d achieved a “strong foundation” since I was a baby (I’ve always though as the feet as a form of foundation because I like seeing tall people).
I was never a sick baby also, unlike my older sister who was always rushed to the hospital because of something, me on the other hand I was as healthy as an ox. It’s just the environment that got to me. One time when my mom just got to our house (because she’s from Cavite and my father lives at Makati) it was very filthy, to the worst of the worst, and that made my precious baby skin irritated and with sores, it was disgusting (my mom described it in Tagalog and I could not dare tell the words in English). My mom had to rush me to the hospital to get me cleaned up. “What kind of house do you have? Are you spawning rats and cockroaches there?! Poor baby, look at him, clean that house up! Don’t let your baby suffer any further skin diseases.” That’s what the Lady Doctor told my mom and my mom was very angry at my grandparents because of that, some of that anger still lingers until today, I can see it in her eyes every time she would tell me that story.
I was fat though, not like chubby fat but fat-fat. I was a bloated baby. If only I could find some pictures, but my cuteness level would have to be an 8 out of 10. Yeah, despite the poor situation of our house (which was cleaned after the incident) I was a bouncing baby boy with a bottle in both hands. I loved my milk, my mom says that whenever I would get my bottle to drink, I would smile first at her and then drink the bottle, how cool is that? 😀 I’d like my baby to do that to me, it made my mom warm and fuzzy on the inside.
I cherish my babyhood, I was independent-adorable, I would be able to put the cap back on my bottle and I would just be smiling quietly and looking at people, I never demanded anyone to come carry me, I just stand quietly and be myself.
“we can never be too sure what a baby will become until that baby grows up :D”
Anyway, I decided to create a series just so I can vent out any emotions hidden inside of me, or just I could clear my mind up for things that are more important. Also when the day comes that I don’t have the capacity to remember these things because of all the things I’m doing in my life, It would be a shame not to be able to tell future relationships about the things I think of today.
It’s slightly weird that I’m typing this while I’m chatting with someone, I feel like my life’s been full of “multi-tasking” lately and that I really don’t have focus on things that would benefit me. It’s not that I’m stagnant or anything but I can be more productive than what I’m doing these days. Hopefully this blogging will help me gain conscious awareness or help me focus on some things and also clear up my mind about things. I keep saying things instead of ideas, that intrigues me. Hahah.
Honestly to tell you (reader) I don’t really know what a Preface is, I just
like to call this that, hopefully this is right. What to do next, How to do it, Why do I have to do it. Questions that linger in my head as I type this words, we’re getting deeper into the jungle that we call James’s Psyche. Hahah! Just kidding, this blog will be as light as a feather, though at times it may seem deep but mainly I want to talk about the fun stuff that happened to me, as much as possible, but I am expecting some drama along with inspiring thoughts as well, and I’m quite excited to be documenting my school life this coming school year. Because I’m heading a guild, it’s called CIA-Guild (Christ is the Answer-Guild) And I have a lot planned, hopefully with the anointing of God I may be used as an instrument for His glory.
So, basically this series is going to be about my childhood up until to where I am now, don’t worry though, I won’t be referring to previous posts to save new readers some read time. I’ll try and make each individual posts stand on its own so it can be read as it is.
Hopefully this excitement won’t die out as the days go by. God Bless you all :D.
One is happy as a result of one’s own efforts, once one knows the necessary ingredients of happiness – simple tastes, a certain degree of courage, self-denial to a point, love of work, and above all, a clear conscience. Happiness is no vague dream, of that I now feel certain. – George Sand (1804 – 1876)
Do you think that God wants you to be happy? I’ve heard sermons from both sides- and I find it fascinating that those who think God is against happiness are generally pretty sour faced themselves. Conversely those who preach a gospel of giddy glee are usually livin’ la vida loca!
For me, I’d say yes and no. Yes God wants you to be happy, but not at the expense of being holy. Jesus actually gave us step by step instructions for inner joy- and the reason He took time to do that was because He really does care about the state of your personal being. He also delineates on delighting in life because He definitely wants you to watch out for the Devil‘s guidebook to happiness.
I think you see the difference…happiness is all in the eye of the beholder. Just keep in mind the Eye that beholds you is the only One who can see you through to true contentment.
What or whom are you looking to for happiness?
Does Jesus or the Devil make more sense? Why?
Which of Jesus’ ideas are you willing to give a try?
God is my source of everything, the One who gives me not only Happiness but True Joy, that is everlasting :D God Bless you All
“Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body. Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.” (Ecclesiastes 12:12-13)
School is ultimately about being educated…but don’t forget to keep the main thing the main thing. Try grading yourself with the list below, and see how well you are being schooled.
All things comes from Him, and it is right to consider Him in all things. I desire nothing but the Lord’s will be done in my life. To God Be All the Glory
There are well over 300 fulfilled prophecies concerning Jesus Christ in the Old Testament. According to author Lee Strobel, the statistical probabilities of just 49 of these prophecies to be actually fulfilled is 1 x 10157. That’s one out of 10 with one hundred fifty seven zeroes! That is the same statistical chance of a blind man randomly picking a pre-marked molecule after wandering a trillion, trillion, trillion, trillion billion universes!
When you do the math on the prophecies that have already been fulfilled, it’s impossible to honestly walk away from the Scriptures believing that it was random chance. In fact, I believe it takes more faith to deny Jesus Christ than to accept Him and His claims. Why? Check this out: Unlike ancient foretellers and modern “psychics”, God‘s standard for fulfilled prophecy is 100%.
“You may say to yourselves, ‘How can we know when a message has not been spoken by the LORD?’ If what a prophet proclaims in the name of the LORD does not take place or come true, that is a message the LORD has not spoken.” Deuteronomy 18:21-22
If you missed even one prediction, you were a false prophet. If you were a false prophet, you were put to death. Think about that for a moment. If the “forecasters” on the psychic phone networks out there lived in Old Testament times, they would have had a very short career span (as well as life span). Yet some people today put more stock in those freakshows than they do the Word of God!
As for Christians, we have people like Daniel on our “psychic hotline”- remember the story of Daniel and the bad kitties? Anyway, he did much more than avoid being Lion Chow. For example, five hundred years before Christ even lived; Daniel predicted the demise of the Babylonian Kingdom, the rise of the Persian, Grecian and Roman kingdoms. He also predicted accurately the rise and fall of Alexander the Great and the four generals that would take over after his death.
Daniel even foretold precisely the time of Christ’s death in Daniel 9:25-26. We could on and on, but the point is that your faith in the Bible being God’s Word is no leap in the dark. In fact, the Bible backs up its claims far better than any other religious text.
So don’t be intimidated by those around you who chatter against God’s Word. They have no idea what they are talking about, and truth is on your side. When you do the math, it is crystal clear that the Word of God stands head and shoulders above every other book ever written. It is, without a doubt, the book of books.
Also, don’t be afraid to completely trust the words of Scripture. It is God’s message to the world, and following its truth is the only hope of life in the universe.
Why do most unbelievers refuse to do the math?
What are some ways you can defend your faith more effectively?
Why do some Christians doubt God’s Word?
What do you need to do to study God’s Word on a regular basis?
Got Peace?There once was a King who offered a prize to the artist who would paint the best picture of peace. Many artists tried. The King looked at all the pictures, but there were only two he really liked and he had to choose between them. One picture was of a calm lake. The lake was a perfect mirror, for peaceful The other picture had mountains too. But these were rugged and bare. Above was an angry sky from which rain fell and in which lightning played. Down the side of the mountain tumbled a foaming waterfall. This did not look peaceful at all. But towering mountains were all around it. Overhead was a blue sky with fluffy white clouds. All who saw this picture thought that it was a perfect picture of peace. when the King looked, he saw behind the waterfall a tiny bush growing in a crack in the rock. In the bush a mother bird had built her nest. There, in the midst of the rush of angry water, sat the mother bird on her nest… perfect peace.
Which picture do you think won the prize?The King chose the second picture. “Because,” explained the King, “peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work. Peace means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart. That is the real meaning Seems to me that most of us would have chosen the first picture- I know I would have. And do you know why? Because we’ve been deceived into thinking that peace is a by-product of circumstances. That at some point we will get all of our stuff together, and all will be as calm as a mountain lake on a perfect dayof peace.” (Catherine Marshall)
So we toil and strive trying to find tranquility in our lives by trying to remove all that seems difficult. In the back of our minds is a little voice saying: “if only…”
Not by changing your circumstances, because you really don’t have a lot of control in that area. Oh sure, you have choices, but you cannot control the choices that other people make-which is usually what ends up trashing our tranquility.
The secret to internal peace is changing your perspective. Here’s the advice God gives:
You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, whose thoughts are fixed on you! (Isaiah 26:3)
Simple principle, don’t you think? Yet sometimes very difficult to apply. Basically, if your mind is constantly fixed on God and His Word, there remains no room for the attacks of worry and stress that kill any hope of peace in our lives. Like the little bird, we need to quit looking around and start looking up to our Creator, and repeating over and over what He has already promised us.
Where to start? Here are a few promises that you can stash in your nest for future study:
How many hours of the day do you experience true peace?
What is keeping you from fixing your thoughts on God?
Which verse from the ones above speaks the loudest to you right now?
Just this morning as I was reading this, my pessimistic mother was bombarding me with discouraging thoughts about life, and how our family is so poor and everything, but no matter how much she insists that, A promise of God always pop-ups to my mind, the promise goes something like... "seek first the kingdom of God and everything shall be added unto you." Dear brothers and sisters, God is such a big celebrity, all of his fans (children) would always get the critics up in their faces, always questioning, always wanting, always whining about something, God tells us to be at peace, just seek Him and you will be equipped with wisdom you cannot fathom for it is God's not yours. God Bless you all this Sunday :)
“You enjoy every moment, you look over her shoulder, and you don’t notice anyone at all, everything else is a blur, but when you get your attention back to her face you see everything, a future, a past and that beautiful present God‘s given you”
To tell you all honestly, I just thought of that quote now, and I was just going to talk about how silly it was for a person to fall in love with a person. But as I read back to those words I type, I slowly become even more confused.
Let me just check myself for a moment, I’m alive and still living in a country where it’s more of a pop culture to be in a relationship. I guess there’s just a lot of bad examples, that’s why my mind (your heart is actually hardwired into your brain’s hypothalamus so I don’t want to say “my hear thinks” ’cause it doesn’t) is so caught up with worrying whether or not I’m going to go through with this feeling.And also I’m somewhat paranoid about things, what my mom would say, what my sister would say, what my colleagues would say, but mostly what my mom would say, she’s too narrow minded to really support me in my relationships, heck, if she had it her way she would want me to grow up with no wife because she wants to get rich, it’s always about getting rich for her.
But for me, God told me so, seek first the kingdom of God and everything shall be added unto you, so most of the time I really don’t worry, I only get shaken when my pessimistic mother gets in my head for a little while. And I’ve been a witness to a Christian relationship or rather two Christians being in a married life, I’ve seen bad examples also but at our church, man, does God know how to put up a love story.
Makes sense though He did create the perfect love story about his Son dying and everything, and I really aspire to that in a sense finding someone that God provided, I’m uncertain if it’ll be as easy as meeting a Christian girl and falling in love with her, or maybe God wants me to change people as He commanded “go and make disciples” and exactly the word “disciples” not “wife-fies”. My mind is not ready for this kind of commitment, as to what I’ve concluded, I couldn’t even make a lovey-dovey blog to what I’m thinking but still I thank God.
“I feel good, God’s making me Mr. Right, right enough to find a Mrs. Right, for us to be both right in God’s eyes.”
Spiritual Vitamins A to Z
Blue? Take Vitamin B.
Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless His holy name. (Ps 103:1)
Crushed? Take Vitamin C.
Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. (1 Pet 5:7)
Depressed? Take Vitamin D.
Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. (James 4:8)
Empty? Take Vitamin E.
Enter His gates with thanksgiving, and his courts with praise. Give thanks to Him, bless His name. (Ps 100:4)
Fearful? Take Vitamin F.
Fear not, for I am with you, do not be afraid, for I am your God. (Isaiah 41:10)
Greedy? Take Vitamin G.
Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man’s life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions.” (Luke 12:15)
Hesitant? Take Vitamin H.
How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of the messenger who announces peace, who brings good news, who announces salvation, who says to Zion, “Your God reigns.” (Isaiah 52:7)
Insecure? Take Vitamin I.
I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. (Phil 4:13)
Jittery? Take Vitamin J.
Know nothing? Take Vitamin K.
Know this that the Lord is God, it is He that made us and not we ourselves. (Ps 100:3)
Lonely? Take Vitamin L.
Lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age. (Mt 28:20,
Nervous? Take Vitamin N.
Never, no never will I leave you nor forsake you. (Hebrews 13:5)
Overwhelmed? Take Vitamin O.
Overcome evil with good. (Romans 12:21)
Perplexed or puzzled? Take Vitamin P.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid. (John 14:27)
Quitting? Take Vitamin Q.
Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong. In Quietness and confidence (trust) is your strength.
(1 Corinthians 16:13) (Isa 30:15)
Restless? Take Vitamin R.
Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him. (Ps 37:7)
Scared? Take Vitamin S.
Stay with me, and do not be afraid; for the one who seeks my life seeks your life; you will be safe with me. (1 Samuel 22:23)
Tired? Take Vitamin T.
Those who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31)
Uncertain? Take Vitamin U.
Understand that I am (the Lord). Before me no god was formed, nor shall there be any after me. (Isaiah 43:10)
Vengeful? Take Vitamin V.
Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath,
for it is written: “Vengeance is mine; I will repay,” says the Lord. (Romans 12:19)
Weak? Take Vitamin W.
My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
eXhausted? Take Vitamin X.
Exercise thyself rather unto godliness. (1 Tim 4:7)
Yearning for hope? Take Vitamin Y.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You art with me; Your rod and Your staff they comfort me. (Ps 23:4)
Zealous? Take Vitamin Z.
It is fine to be zealous, provided the purpose is good, and to be so always and not just when I am with you. (Galatians 4:18)
Which vitamins do you need the most?
What in your life drains you the most?
Do you have friends/family that need these vitamins too?
Most of the time I really experience these negative emotions in life, and this devotion is a great reminder (in my opinion). Aspiring to be a veteran blogger can really drain some out of you, haha LOL, I just really want to let myself talk it out on something that I don’t have to stare at my bad hand writing, and Hallelujah for laptops and fonts that I can clearly see what I’m typing, Praise God 😀